Cosmic Flow

Once, a while back, I learned a fantastic lesson.  Over the months it faded.  I wouldn’t say forgotten, but slowly fell into the background of my life as other things took up my attention.  Yesterday after a difficult weekend I found myself asking questions of self, honesty, and courage.  As I reached for an old notebook to write in and began reading things written months ago I came across this wonderful lesson –to be inspired once again:

Friday, 5 June 2015
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‘…I had learned a lesson a few days ago, inspired by another regarding grievances.  The latter asks us to let them go and feel peace and oneness with the world.  My biggest grievance at the time was with this guy that wouldn’t pay Ben for work done.  Later, in the shower, came the lesson:

No one can stop Ben from receiving what is coming to him.  No human, no group of people.  The cosmic flow will come, and never in retribution.  The cosmic flow is life and love.  It is pure spirit and being.  It is what we are, and we are all part of it.

Bens flow finds him always.  Only Ben can block himself from it.  Only Ben can deprive himself of his own life force, path, and destiny.  If he engages in battle with this person he will lock himself into this guy’s own made misery, and be locking his flow within and without.  It MUST FLOW, and us with it!

So the faith is not in people’s petty ways, it is in our cosmic existence.

I spent the next couple of days not being able to adhere to the lesson, stressing about this horrible man.  So much for letting go of grievances…  Then Bens P/L came in, stating a profit 6 times what was expected with a cash flow more than double, showing me a lesson actualised, one that I failed to have faith in.  Days later I finally told Ben of this lesson as I realised my delay was due to fear.  Fear that the story would legitimise in Bens mind an excuse not to pursue the money he is owed.  That was yesterday.

Today we had a bad argument over it.  This guy was making excuses and Ben was accepting them.  I have been stressing about this issue for years, people avoiding payment and Ben accepting what I believe to be lies.  A stressful existence when raising young children and relying on the one business for financial security.  Especially now at a time when we are trying to relocate and provide our children with a better life.  Stress that fractures a family’s wellbeing from within.

When I went to the shower came my lesson, again.  (Must be a flow thing…)  No one can stop what’s coming to us.  No one can stop our cosmic flow but us ourselves.  No one can stop MY flow, not even Ben.  That was my fear over the past few days.  MY fear of stagnation, desertion, and financial distress from exposure to dishonest people Ben keeps allowing into our lives –so I feel. 

But my path will prevail regardless!  I must have faith in this cosmic flow to enable me to do what I want/need/am guided to do.  If I need Acreage for this, the universe will find me the place and the means.  If I am to make do with the bit of land I have, so be it.  This is now in the hands of my cosmic flow, not Bens and his financial decisions.’

Now, almost two years later, look where we are.  Over a year since our move I still pinch myself, finding it hard to believe we are here.  With such immense cosmic generosity and natural abundance, our petty grievances are even more pronounced.  My children deserve better, they deserve the world.  We must wake up to ourselves and open our hearts and souls to the lessons that now surround every bit of our daily existence because our children and us, we already have the world.