A Day On My Path

Today it was made clear to me how some things are very easy -natural and effortless even, while others are extremely difficult.  I expect this will vary from one person to the next.  (I remember reading something a friend wrote about the people in her life.  There was so much love in her words, it was poetic and very touching).

Things that are easy can be so natural they don’t need trying.  For me it’s nature, all of it.  When I am in nature I am totally connected, I feel most alive, and I flow.  I am home.

With people, for me, it is the opposite.  I feel vulnerable and self-conscious.  Even writing this, knowing it might be read by others, I become self-critical.  I don’t like doing this, it is exposing.  But if I shut down and hide away, I am following the path of separation rather than connection.  Being vulnerable often comes with connection, at least in a transition phase.  Does it hang around always? -I don’t know.  (In itself it is not such a terrible thing, there is a strength that comes from a place of vulnerability when you allow yourself to be open and connect).

Anyway, when I am in nature not only do I feel great, things tend to come together for me on many levels.  One by one my wishes come true, I am physically healthier and mentally calmer.  Healing and vitality are perpetual, and a sense of grounding is attained easily.  I used to attribute this to nature itself, to the wisdom in all that is wild and free to be as it is.  -And that is most probably true.  But it occurred to me lately that these benefits might be available everywhere, in every experience, and in all aspects of our lives, whether we are connecting with nature, living in the city, or interacting with others.  Maybe experiences of self-fulfilment, well being, and love, occur because we are open and connected, allowing these experiences to flow to and from us, channelled by whatever circumstances we are open to and welcome into our lives.  If this is indeed the case, then for me, becoming more open to people and human interaction may transform my experience of human relationships into one that is more fulfilling and supportive, within and without.